i dont deserve this angel, do i??...

lately i've been feeling
this kind of weird feeling like
my baby gurl will never be mine forever...
that freaks me out...
totally..
at times i've even cried...
lonely...
i love her with all my heart and i will take care of her...
i know myself...
to me she is my wifey
i am gonna spend my lifetime with her...
she is my one and only...
i will never find no one better than her...
i can never find anyone better than her...
she is just too perfect...
my dream girl..
and an angel who literally changed me...
she is my angel...
i need my angel...
i love her so much
without her i have no life...
she is my everything...
she is my one and only....
will she be mine???...
will she love me too???...
please answer me yes or no...
by voting...*on top*
i really really dnt know what to do...
i really wanna know if really deserve this angel...

happy birthdaY

well today is my sisters birthday..
every year we use to celebrate it as a family?...
but this year...
dad?...*working*
mom?...*working*
sigh!!
.....
*work work work*
damn busy..
so she went out with her bf...
they celebrated it together...
hmmmm.. he bought a cake for us...
mmm..
haha...


secret recipe again...


this is my part of the cake...haha
*not a good photographer*

;)
anyway as a brother i just wanted to wish my sis...

happy birthday...
may GOd bless you with many more birthdays
and
all your dreams to come true... :)
GOD bless...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
This birthday greeting
Has a message for you
That comes from my heart
That is sincere and true

You're the kindest person
This world holds
Worth more to me
Than all the world's gold

My feelings for you
I don't always show
As time goes on
They seem to grow

Your kind and caring
And always there for me
Thank you for everything
You do so thoughtfully
........................
and yea!
one last thing...
i would like to wish my baby gurl
...
hey baby gurl all the best for your PMR trial
do your best
pray
God will be with you
he will help you
just pray and everything will be fine
you are the best and will always be the best...
love you... :)
*kisses*
..........................

bye for now..
thnx for reading...
lotsa loves
~EPHRAIM~
PEARLBOY

OuT wItH FrEnZ

im gonna tell you guys bout two things...

one...
my skool merentas desa...
was kinda fun at first...
i went there at 7 am...
saw my teacher and took attendance...
then find my frenz...
about 8 all go for warm up...
me and my sis cant do anything?...
we sit only...
at 8.30...
all start to run ad...
i cant run...
cuz of the accident....
i walk with my fren...

these are the ppl who was walking too... :)

my fren...
he talk about his love story...
was sweet...
when he was talking...
i was thinking bout my baby gurl...
hhmmppHH!!
miss her?
YES!!
alooooott!!!
so we walk for 7-8km...
at 11pm or something like that the event finish ad...
then me and my sis went back ad...
ermm...thats all for number one...


now the second one...
ooooh baby!!! today was fun...
went to CPT's food and fun fair at 10 something...
went there ad??
got lost i dnt know where i was going?...hahaha...
then called my frenz...
after a while they came...
ash and yusoff...
so we hang out...
walk here and there...
my fren saw one girl...
he liked her...
loVe at first sight?...
yea!...haha...
we followed her like idiots!...
i ask him to go and talk, he didn't want...
we followed her like from 11 to 12.30 pm...
he was so nervous lah... haha
he didn't wan...
kesian him... :(
so we went to gurney as planned...
went to secret recipe to have a drink...
we had 7up?...
and cheese brownies...
and some chips...
we talk,talk & talk...
but the drink still never reach...
it was like 15-20 minutes...
sigh!
then after about 25 minutes waiting there?...

then it came...
haha...
service not good rite?...
haihh...
we ate and drank...
...
with the cap is me and the other is ash...
hmm...i dnt wanna look at you yusoff!...

then left the place...
but before we go?...
we paid the bill and...
leave some "tips"...

you want tips huh??...

take it nahhh 50cent...haha...we so bad!!..i know..
it was not my idea it was ash's...

after that walk...
walk & walk & walk...
non stop...
till 4 something...
then,yusoff went back...
me and ash walk here and there...
went to eat at the food court...
my mum belanja cuz she is working there...
eat fried rice...
and coke...
after eating when to bead zone...
bought something that is so sweet and special to me...
then went back ad...
took bus...
when in the bus was texting her...
was damn happy cuz I was texting HER!...
its my life...
SsHhHhH!!! its a secret... :)
LOL...
reached home at 6...
then continue texting her...
hahaha....


i guess thats it for now....
thnx for reading...
love you all...
peace and love...

~pearlboy~
Ephraim

Ciao!

GuY + GiRL = ThIS World... T.T

3.10pm
i started writing this


i love my baby gurl so much...
it feels like this will never end...
im'ma keep waiting and waiting and
wait forever!...
she will be with me...
not now but one day...
i believe...


each time i say i love her...
i truthfully love her...
but...
i end up getting hurt...
its pain...


i love to smile a lot...


but these few days?..
or few weeks? i guess...
i cant even smile...


i really understand wat is life now...
i didn't wanna involve in this "love" stuff and all...

i know i'll get hurt...
cuz i've seen my so called "frens"...
they just love to play girls feelings...
they "love" them...
just to hurt them...
i feel so sorry for the girls...
i've also seen some guys...
they just wanna have s*x with the girls they are with...
they never think that some day they have to get married with a girl too...
what if their wife has been *&*!#@# by some idiots??...
at that point they'll realize that its wrong to do that to a girl...
but?...
its way too late?...
what can they do??...

CRY??

worry??
no use!

it brings tears to my eyes to see girls being hurt/abused that way...
i have a sister too...
why am i saying this cuz i love my sister...
how if a guy does that to my sis?..
how i'll feel??
ThaNk GoD SHe has her right guy...

and i have my baby gurl the one i love more than anything?...
she is with another guy?...
i'm worried if he hurts her?...
or do something that is not right?..
i need her always?...
forever...
i believe one day she'll realize how much i love her?
and she'll love me too...
its all up to God to decide...

the reason i blog this is because...
i wanna tell to all the guys out there...
dont hurt the girl you are with...
love her with all your heart...
appreciate her...
cuz you will not know that will you find a better girl than her...


and to girls...
if the guy really loves you...
go for him...
love him...
don't avoid him...
i know the feeling of being avoided...
its pain...
so as a "victim" im telling all the girls...
love the one who loves you and will take care of you...
not those who are good looking?
or rich?
err.....
i don't know...
one day the looks will fade...
wealth can melt...
but love and care will still be the same...
young and fresh...

and get rid of those stupid womanizers...
who just wanna try *%#%$% you!

NOW COMING BACK TO ME...
I DECIDE THAT

MY LOVE FOR MY BABY GURL WILL G.O.N.E
grammar error huh?
it actually means...
MY LOVE FOR MY BABY GURL WILL GO ON NEVER END....

G:Go
O:On
N:Never
E:End

i'll love you always...
i'll be there for you when ever you need me...
i will never hurt you...
i was brought up by a mum and a dad...
who taught me what is true love...
they love us
me and my sis...
and never once hurt us...
i've seen true love...
my dad and my mum...

they love each other so much...
thats how i love my baby gurl...
i've learn what is love from my daddy...
my dad does anything and everything for his wife and kids(me and my sis)...

this is my family... :)


baby gurl i'll do anything for you...
i promise...
i love you...
i believe you'll love me too...
cuz my heart says so??...
will you?...
idk...only you know??...


bye bye everyone...
thnx for reading my blog...
its too long
i know?...
but i wan everyone to understand that...
love is not a game...
and someone's heart is not a ball for you to play soccer...
its fragile...

if it breaks?...
there will be no noise..
but it will be very pain...

this is for everyone to realize only k?..
no hard feelings...
dnt hate me...
i'm sorry if this hurts anyone...
i didn't mean to hurt anyone...


this is just a piece of advise...
~pearlboy~
Ephraim
lotsa loves

IT HURTS WITHOUT YOU

its been few days
i didn't contact her...
i was missing her so much...
but wat to do?...
sigh!...
i just have to stay here alone...

lonely...

but she has someone..
yea everyone knows that rite??...
sigh...
he is a very lucky guy...


because she is an angel...

she is an angel who light up my life....

he might be a nice guy...

goodlooking?...


hot?...


smart?..*reading book*



rich?...


fun guy?...

hmm...
maybe many more...
i dunno...

who i am?...
just a simple guy...

this is me!....
yeah i know i look like
*EeEEWw* rite!!!
i never loved someone this much...
i tought i was waiting for the right one...
but when i found her...
i realized that i wasn't born to have anyone...
you know there are people who live single life long?..
i guess i was born to live that way...

but i dnt wanna live like that...
i need her so much...
i better die...
rather than living without her....
she is my life...
i dnt need anyone except her...

words for my baby gurl...
i promise i'll love you till the day i die baby gurl...
you are my destiny...

and i wanna live my life with you...
you are my everything...
please come back to me...
i'll take care of you like a princess...
cuz you are my princess...

i dnt have anything...
except my heart that is full of you...


i know i am...
not goodlooking?
not smart?
not a fun guy?
not rich?
not talented?
many more...
but i fall in love with you...
totally...*i have no idea its right or wrong*
i need you and only you!!
you are the only one in my heart...
i will wait for you...
no matter how long it takes...
for you to understand me love for you...
i wanna spend the rest of my life with you...

why do someone fall in love??..
wishing that one day they can live with the one they love?...
thats the same with me...
i wanna live with you baby gurl....
i wanna live for you...
i am nothing without you...
you are my life...
you are my angel that God sent to me...
you are my wifey...
i need you...



please come back to me??...
will you??...


i promise i'll be waiting for you...
today...
tomoro...
and forever...


i love you so much....
be mine forever?...



and to everyone out there thnx for reading...
please leave a comment on the chatbox...
love you all...
love you baby gurl...


~pearlboy~
EPHRAIM
XOXO

FUN DAY???

yesterday
my sis bf went to interview for work...
he wanted to celebrate it...
about 2pm we went to padang kota to eat...
ate at astaka...
mamak mee??..
wow...nice to eat...
at least there was love even it was not expensive or classy food...
so i love it...

after makan...
went to ermm...
gurney...



went there ad then...
we bought ticket for transformers...



then still got time for the movie...
we went to play snooker...
then daytona??
hehe.. i didn't quite know how to play...

then jalan-jalan...
talk talk talk...
nice knowing him...
nice guy..
so i like him...

then went to watch the movie...
wow...
its been so long since i watch movie in cinema...
ahahahaha...
er...i'm serious..
i know its lame...
haha...


but actually i agreed to go maybe cuz i can try to forget all my sadness...
but went there...
every girl i see
i saw her face...
DAMN!!
IsH!!
but it was sweet lah...
can see her in everyone...
=[
but can't see her??...
sigh!

hahha...
its alrite lah...
at least get to see
my soon to be brother in law...

when watching...
felt so cold!...
i see all the couple there hugging their partner!!..
was annoyed by them...
ish!!

no peace also...

ARGH!!....

makes me feel like an idiot...
but i loved the movie la...
nice one...
love the words that megan fox told him when he was dying...
but i realise ppl only will love you when you're dead?...
ahhaahaha...
hmm...i had a great day yesterday...

thnx to Yadev...


this is yadev(sis's bf) and sarah(my sis)


YES it was a fun day....
but missed her alot...







I MISSED HER LIKE A CRAZY GUY!!..
but wat to do??..
this is life...

LOVE YOU ALL...



~pearlboy~
EPHRAIM
XOXO