GuY + GiRL = ThIS World... T.T

3.10pm
i started writing this


i love my baby gurl so much...
it feels like this will never end...
im'ma keep waiting and waiting and
wait forever!...
she will be with me...
not now but one day...
i believe...


each time i say i love her...
i truthfully love her...
but...
i end up getting hurt...
its pain...


i love to smile a lot...


but these few days?..
or few weeks? i guess...
i cant even smile...


i really understand wat is life now...
i didn't wanna involve in this "love" stuff and all...

i know i'll get hurt...
cuz i've seen my so called "frens"...
they just love to play girls feelings...
they "love" them...
just to hurt them...
i feel so sorry for the girls...
i've also seen some guys...
they just wanna have s*x with the girls they are with...
they never think that some day they have to get married with a girl too...
what if their wife has been *&*!#@# by some idiots??...
at that point they'll realize that its wrong to do that to a girl...
but?...
its way too late?...
what can they do??...

CRY??

worry??
no use!

it brings tears to my eyes to see girls being hurt/abused that way...
i have a sister too...
why am i saying this cuz i love my sister...
how if a guy does that to my sis?..
how i'll feel??
ThaNk GoD SHe has her right guy...

and i have my baby gurl the one i love more than anything?...
she is with another guy?...
i'm worried if he hurts her?...
or do something that is not right?..
i need her always?...
forever...
i believe one day she'll realize how much i love her?
and she'll love me too...
its all up to God to decide...

the reason i blog this is because...
i wanna tell to all the guys out there...
dont hurt the girl you are with...
love her with all your heart...
appreciate her...
cuz you will not know that will you find a better girl than her...


and to girls...
if the guy really loves you...
go for him...
love him...
don't avoid him...
i know the feeling of being avoided...
its pain...
so as a "victim" im telling all the girls...
love the one who loves you and will take care of you...
not those who are good looking?
or rich?
err.....
i don't know...
one day the looks will fade...
wealth can melt...
but love and care will still be the same...
young and fresh...

and get rid of those stupid womanizers...
who just wanna try *%#%$% you!

NOW COMING BACK TO ME...
I DECIDE THAT

MY LOVE FOR MY BABY GURL WILL G.O.N.E
grammar error huh?
it actually means...
MY LOVE FOR MY BABY GURL WILL GO ON NEVER END....

G:Go
O:On
N:Never
E:End

i'll love you always...
i'll be there for you when ever you need me...
i will never hurt you...
i was brought up by a mum and a dad...
who taught me what is true love...
they love us
me and my sis...
and never once hurt us...
i've seen true love...
my dad and my mum...

they love each other so much...
thats how i love my baby gurl...
i've learn what is love from my daddy...
my dad does anything and everything for his wife and kids(me and my sis)...

this is my family... :)


baby gurl i'll do anything for you...
i promise...
i love you...
i believe you'll love me too...
cuz my heart says so??...
will you?...
idk...only you know??...


bye bye everyone...
thnx for reading my blog...
its too long
i know?...
but i wan everyone to understand that...
love is not a game...
and someone's heart is not a ball for you to play soccer...
its fragile...

if it breaks?...
there will be no noise..
but it will be very pain...

this is for everyone to realize only k?..
no hard feelings...
dnt hate me...
i'm sorry if this hurts anyone...
i didn't mean to hurt anyone...


this is just a piece of advise...
~pearlboy~
Ephraim
lotsa loves

IT HURTS WITHOUT YOU

its been few days
i didn't contact her...
i was missing her so much...
but wat to do?...
sigh!...
i just have to stay here alone...

lonely...

but she has someone..
yea everyone knows that rite??...
sigh...
he is a very lucky guy...


because she is an angel...

she is an angel who light up my life....

he might be a nice guy...

goodlooking?...


hot?...


smart?..*reading book*



rich?...


fun guy?...

hmm...
maybe many more...
i dunno...

who i am?...
just a simple guy...

this is me!....
yeah i know i look like
*EeEEWw* rite!!!
i never loved someone this much...
i tought i was waiting for the right one...
but when i found her...
i realized that i wasn't born to have anyone...
you know there are people who live single life long?..
i guess i was born to live that way...

but i dnt wanna live like that...
i need her so much...
i better die...
rather than living without her....
she is my life...
i dnt need anyone except her...

words for my baby gurl...
i promise i'll love you till the day i die baby gurl...
you are my destiny...

and i wanna live my life with you...
you are my everything...
please come back to me...
i'll take care of you like a princess...
cuz you are my princess...

i dnt have anything...
except my heart that is full of you...


i know i am...
not goodlooking?
not smart?
not a fun guy?
not rich?
not talented?
many more...
but i fall in love with you...
totally...*i have no idea its right or wrong*
i need you and only you!!
you are the only one in my heart...
i will wait for you...
no matter how long it takes...
for you to understand me love for you...
i wanna spend the rest of my life with you...

why do someone fall in love??..
wishing that one day they can live with the one they love?...
thats the same with me...
i wanna live with you baby gurl....
i wanna live for you...
i am nothing without you...
you are my life...
you are my angel that God sent to me...
you are my wifey...
i need you...



please come back to me??...
will you??...


i promise i'll be waiting for you...
today...
tomoro...
and forever...


i love you so much....
be mine forever?...



and to everyone out there thnx for reading...
please leave a comment on the chatbox...
love you all...
love you baby gurl...


~pearlboy~
EPHRAIM
XOXO

FUN DAY???

yesterday
my sis bf went to interview for work...
he wanted to celebrate it...
about 2pm we went to padang kota to eat...
ate at astaka...
mamak mee??..
wow...nice to eat...
at least there was love even it was not expensive or classy food...
so i love it...

after makan...
went to ermm...
gurney...



went there ad then...
we bought ticket for transformers...



then still got time for the movie...
we went to play snooker...
then daytona??
hehe.. i didn't quite know how to play...

then jalan-jalan...
talk talk talk...
nice knowing him...
nice guy..
so i like him...

then went to watch the movie...
wow...
its been so long since i watch movie in cinema...
ahahahaha...
er...i'm serious..
i know its lame...
haha...


but actually i agreed to go maybe cuz i can try to forget all my sadness...
but went there...
every girl i see
i saw her face...
DAMN!!
IsH!!
but it was sweet lah...
can see her in everyone...
=[
but can't see her??...
sigh!

hahha...
its alrite lah...
at least get to see
my soon to be brother in law...

when watching...
felt so cold!...
i see all the couple there hugging their partner!!..
was annoyed by them...
ish!!

no peace also...

ARGH!!....

makes me feel like an idiot...
but i loved the movie la...
nice one...
love the words that megan fox told him when he was dying...
but i realise ppl only will love you when you're dead?...
ahhaahaha...
hmm...i had a great day yesterday...

thnx to Yadev...


this is yadev(sis's bf) and sarah(my sis)


YES it was a fun day....
but missed her alot...







I MISSED HER LIKE A CRAZY GUY!!..
but wat to do??..
this is life...

LOVE YOU ALL...



~pearlboy~
EPHRAIM
XOXO

LOVE HURTS

i'm tired of writing
i just wanna show you guys how sad i am....
this is my love story...
and the instrumental...
i made that when i was extremely sad...
so please comment bout anything in the chatbox...
love you guys...

LOVE YOU!!!
T.T

sad like never before...T.T

hey people thnx for reading my posts...
if i'm happy i'll share with everyone...
if sad?... i'll keep it to myself...
but this i can't
so i had to blog...
sorrry...


few days back i was really missing her...
so damn much...
was like dying...
then she came closer to me!!...
of course i'll be the happiest person on earth rite?...
i felt so happy like never before...
then yesterday...
she text me early morning around 5 something...
will you do that?...
No rite!...

i woke up at 7...
i saw then i ask
are you crazy?...
why so early you text?...
she said lol & XD??
haha...maybe she memang crazy ad!!...
i'm not gonna say her crazy...
i sayang her....

then without knowing time was running
we text and text till afternoon...
then she went somewhere...
to study lah...
from 2pm till 5 something...
i was missing her like crazy...
tooked my phone wanna text her so many times
but??...
she needs to study also wat?...
so i didn't text her...
then at 5.53pm she sent me a msg...
FFuuuuuuUUUHHuh!!!!!!!!!!!
i was like...
*THANK GOD*
i was feeling so damn lonely...



i asked her one question...
do you love me??...
i must be the stupidest person on earth i know...
but i can't take it that she's with someone else la...

she was angry i guesS??..
maybe very angry....

but i ask you all lah?...
can you all take it if someone you love
is dating someone else?...
its really really pain...
to me!!!!...
cuz im stucked with her...
i can never let her go...

she answered
ER........

i know it means NO ad....
so i said its arite la...

then she said...
"i never say NO also"??...

then we were chatting bout some other stuff lah....
but that answer bothered me so much...
i wanted to ask her wat did she mean by...
"i never say NO also"??...


i never ask her....
but before i go to sleep i asked her...
if not i can't sleep...
but no reply...
so sad...
i went to sleep...



just now morning i wished her all the best cuz its her big day today...
then i ask why no reply for that question?...
she said dont spoil my mood today...
i felt so sad...
she crushed my heart...



in my mind only one thing was going round and round....

listen to that song thats playing??..

IF THAT GURL DONT LOVE ME BY NOW??...
SHE AINT GON'
NEVER LOVE YOU... (ciara)

i've been thru lotsa sad times...
but this makes me wanna cry...

only you can make me happy baby gurl...
if you're reading this forgive me for everything that i said k...
LOVE YOU SO MUCH...
i'm Missing You So Much...
i will not spoil your mood anymore k...
if you feel like you wanna text me?...
you text k!...
i'll be waiting...




LOVE YOU...

WHO IS MY BABY GURL??

most of you all wonder who is this crazy guy talking about???...

who is my baby gurl???....

i just wanna share this to everyone...

i knew this girl through friendster when i was 14 ...

saw her in one of my frens profile, she was his fren ..

i cant remember who was that??

the minute i saw her pic

i liked her...

so i added her as my fren ..

and guess what??... =]

she approved me!!...

she? looked so pretty…

me?...not good looking…

so I was scared she would reject me…

I just left with no words…

two years later!! XP

Hmmm…….

Beginning of this year…

I went through my friendster account

And I saw her profile again…

I was like OMG??

She became prettier…

And unfortunately my feelings for her became stronger…

I was like damn, I wanna know who this girl was…

I wanna be with her…

I told to myself “its alrite if she rejects me

I’ll still be at least her fren”

So I started chatting with her…

We became frens…

Then one day I told her that I love her…

Er…she didn’t reject me…

she said anything…

I was like wat???

Wat you mean?...

Say yes or no….

She said yes…

I could not believe…

I knew she was not serious

We didn’t wan the relationship like that…

We became good frens…

The more I got to know her, the more I fell in love with her…

Yesterday, today, tomoro and forever only she will be in my heart…

She is always my number one…

I love her so much…

But now she has someone else…

So wat can I do??...

Just wait for her…

lets just wait and see wat happens next....

To me she was, is and will always be my everything…

I wanna spend my life with her only…

There is no meaning for my life without my baby gurl…

she is the one and only sweetest girl i've seen in my life...

Erm…

I dunno wat to say ad…

I guess that’s all…

thx for spending time reading this....

~ LOVE YOU ALL~

love you baby gurl

you are my everything