sad like never before...T.T

hey people thnx for reading my posts...
if i'm happy i'll share with everyone...
if sad?... i'll keep it to myself...
but this i can't
so i had to blog...
sorrry...


few days back i was really missing her...
so damn much...
was like dying...
then she came closer to me!!...
of course i'll be the happiest person on earth rite?...
i felt so happy like never before...
then yesterday...
she text me early morning around 5 something...
will you do that?...
No rite!...

i woke up at 7...
i saw then i ask
are you crazy?...
why so early you text?...
she said lol & XD??
haha...maybe she memang crazy ad!!...
i'm not gonna say her crazy...
i sayang her....

then without knowing time was running
we text and text till afternoon...
then she went somewhere...
to study lah...
from 2pm till 5 something...
i was missing her like crazy...
tooked my phone wanna text her so many times
but??...
she needs to study also wat?...
so i didn't text her...
then at 5.53pm she sent me a msg...
FFuuuuuuUUUHHuh!!!!!!!!!!!
i was like...
*THANK GOD*
i was feeling so damn lonely...



i asked her one question...
do you love me??...
i must be the stupidest person on earth i know...
but i can't take it that she's with someone else la...

she was angry i guesS??..
maybe very angry....

but i ask you all lah?...
can you all take it if someone you love
is dating someone else?...
its really really pain...
to me!!!!...
cuz im stucked with her...
i can never let her go...

she answered
ER........

i know it means NO ad....
so i said its arite la...

then she said...
"i never say NO also"??...

then we were chatting bout some other stuff lah....
but that answer bothered me so much...
i wanted to ask her wat did she mean by...
"i never say NO also"??...


i never ask her....
but before i go to sleep i asked her...
if not i can't sleep...
but no reply...
so sad...
i went to sleep...



just now morning i wished her all the best cuz its her big day today...
then i ask why no reply for that question?...
she said dont spoil my mood today...
i felt so sad...
she crushed my heart...



in my mind only one thing was going round and round....

listen to that song thats playing??..

IF THAT GURL DONT LOVE ME BY NOW??...
SHE AINT GON'
NEVER LOVE YOU... (ciara)

i've been thru lotsa sad times...
but this makes me wanna cry...

only you can make me happy baby gurl...
if you're reading this forgive me for everything that i said k...
LOVE YOU SO MUCH...
i'm Missing You So Much...
i will not spoil your mood anymore k...
if you feel like you wanna text me?...
you text k!...
i'll be waiting...




LOVE YOU...